Alone again.

I had a lovely meal with the family today. Everything was terrific. Adults and children enjoyed themselves, everyone was happy, even the food was great.

But, I went home to an empty house.

My wonderful wife of 40 years recently lost her 14 year battle with cancer.

It doesn’t matter how many phone calls and texts I get, how many supportive words from friends and family, the fact is that I miss Sue so much that it hurts. Not just emotionally, but actually physically, I guess the word is anguish.

You don’t get to my age without loss. Grandparents, parents, I have buried them all. But each time, Sue was there with me, my love, my companion, my help, my rock.

I try to fill my life with distractions, but sooner or later, I have to come home to the empty house. Some people have said that I should move. But what’s the point? Sue won’t be there. And that’s what I want, that’s what I need – Susie, my Sue.

I will close there. I know that a blog should be uplifting, inspirational, fun, – well, sorry, but that’s not where I am right now. It’s more heartbroken, crushed, lost.

I sincerely hope that you are not in the same situation. If you are, my heart goes out to you.

Take care of yourselves and each other.

Steve

 

 

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2 thoughts on “Alone again.”

  1. Nothing I can write would mean anything or change anything…I just wanted to tell you that I love this post, so full of emotion, I read it to my husband. May God be the one to fill the void.

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    1. Thank you so much. At the moment, I try to be positive and uplifting, but that’s not what’s in my heart. And what’s in my heart is what I write. Thanks again, be blessed.

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